Why Can't I Flow

Guest Writer: Heddie J

I felt like I was beating myself up against a wall.
I know what I am supposed to do, but I would always fall.
Why do I feel so heavy, when I need to feel so free.
Maybe I am just not allowing forgiveness to flow in me.
I have the ability to do the will of God, when I can.
Yet, it still feels like it is not fully reaching Man.
I think I know that I need to repent because I am not perfect.
Thank you God for allowing repentance, to fight this fit.

As I consider this fight within, my mind is reminded of the words of Peter.

“The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance” 2 Peter 3:9.


This scripture is telling us that our master, God, renders slowly to what He has announced as the promised good or blessing. Some lead in a slow motion as if in a delayed position. However, our Heavenly Father is patient toward us because He has no desire to destroy us but allow us to retire of the old way and have a change of mind of our very purpose. God distributes slowly toward our blessings so that we may get rid of what we formed in our mind that is negative toward our destiny.

He called us all to do something on earth and desires for us to repent. Consistently, thinking bad of our self and making bad decisions is against the will of God. He doesn’t pride off putting an end to us, that we may perish. In life we will experience doing things that cause grief, but He looks to us to, just repent and have a sigh of relief.

What is in you that you do, that you need to let go?
Are you still in it, blocking off your flow?
Will you just repent and turn back from this sin?
Will you today and let the peace of God within?

Out of all the abilities that you may have within yourself
You can do nothing without God’s great help
You can try to fake this thing along the way
But with heaviness, you will only have a wasted day
Just try repenting and see if God gives you your flow
We are all called to it, now more truth you know.

© 2009 Heddie J.